Getting my passport was a fun experience in training my emotions.
Throughout my youth, I was always seen as someone who didn’t get too perturbed by much of anything. I didn’t get horribly happy, or angry, or frustrated. At least, me and everyone else didn’t think I did. A few months ago I started gettin upset by all the little things, and I broke my hand twice taking my anger an frustration out on various objects while no one was around. Looking back, I realised that this was because I never delt with anger and frustration.
Shamanism teaches that labelling an emotion a good or bad is an incorrect assumption: good and bad being a human perception. I’m going to add a bit more to that spit of wisdom: an emotion isn’t positive or negative, it’s how you deal with it. I was repressing my emotions (subconsiously of course,) and was relying on that negative reaction. Needless to say, when it eventually did explode out (think a 21 year old bottle of champagne that’s being shaken vigerously every now and again, and the cap eventually coming off) it was violent and destructive, and left me with self loathing. So, I recently bought a punching bag, and go a round with it every few weeks, and suddenly when I do feel those emotions, it’s not as strangling and all consuming as it once had been.
Moral of the story: find a healthy method to tone down your emotions, remembering to follow the rede: An harm thee none do as thou will, before frustrating yourself on learning to control and understand said emotions.
Ps: I don’t condone acts of violence like shootings or beatings, but I don’t see any poblem with fighting as a sport as long as both are willing participants. Animals fight for play and superiority in nature amongst themselves, I see no harm in adult humans doing the same.